Everything is Made of God

I recently recorded a podcast episode with a friend (details forthcoming) with the title “Everything is Made of God.”

The premise that we were working with is that if we approach the entire world as if it really were a part of God — a part of the original One Great Being — we are more likely to make choices about how we alter our environment that are less destructive. My argument is essentially this: if the narrative that we’ve grown up with is that Ymir’s hair (stick with me for a second if you’re unfamiliar with Norse creation myths) really became the trees of the Earth, and that the gods Odin, Hoenir, and Lodurr, (or Odin, Villi, and Ve) shaped the trees into the first man and woman, then not only are the trees and forests our ancestors and worthy of veneration, all mankind is your beloved sibling — there is no room for notions of “illegal aliens” or hierarchies of skin tone if we are all descendants of Ask and Embla — and all the material world is shaped of Ymir’s divine body.

It doesn’t matter that it’s obviously scientifically silly to say that the clouds are a dead giant’s brains or the sea is Ymir’s blood. It doesn’t matter if it’s a “true” story in the sense that saying two hydrogen atoms and one oxygen atom make up a water molecule is objectively true. The Ymir myth is a narrative that, I argue, equips us with a worldview that promotes decision making that is healthier, more equitable, more likely to defuse conflict, more likely to produce systems that work for humans and other animals and plants, fungi and all the other living beings of the planet.

So, the brief story of Ymir drawn from the poetic and prose Eddas runs like this: Primordial Fire and Primordial Ice meet up in The Big Empty, and the primordial giant, Ymir, is formed. From his sweat arises more beings. Some of these, the gods, essentially hack up Ymir to make Earth — who is herself conceived of as a conscious and willful goddess, Jord. Ymir’s bones and flesh become mountains, rocks, and soil, his blood is the sea, his hair is the trees, his brains make the clouds, his skull is the vault of the sky and so on.

One of the things we had to contest with (in my conversation for this podcast) is the idea of “double vision” — or, more likely, “fractal vision.” We may see the world on a spiritual level one way, but on a scientific or political level, we may see things differently.

The crux of “double vision” runs like this: just because I recognize someone as a beloved sibling who is making terrible choices as a result of crushing anxiety doesn’t mean that I’m not going to punch that someone if they’re trying to assault or kidnap my neighbor. 

Just because I recognize the underlying unity of all people, (and beasts, and trees) doesn’t mean that anyone gets a pass on starving kids (or anyone else) for political aims. Genocide is genocide. 

Nazi is as Nazi does, and we do not tolerate Nazis in this house; that’s how you wind up with your tattoos as lampshades.

So, if I’m coming at the world with a very pantheistic, animistic, hippie perspective, how do I deal with the obvious presence of evil in the world?

In short, bodies get sick. That is natural. We have to deal with sickness appropriately.

Here’s how I see it: human beings are deeply anxious little animals. We’re scared that we’re not good enough. We’re scared of death. We’re scared that our friends will reject us, that we won’t find love, that our loved ones will leave. We’re anxious about winter and we’re anxious about the rain, we’re anxious that the crops won’t produce enough and we’re worried that the animals are sick or the hunting won’t go well or that the baby will die or mother will die in childbirth. All these are legitimate fears. But at core, we are tense, vulnerable little creatures with a strong — overpowering — desire to feel that we are in control.

Our bid for control can go in essentially one of two directions. We can develop distress tolerance, be OK with the fact that everything is not OK, exercise our own agency to improve relations with the other people and beings around us by improving our own mental health, or we can seek power over others. We can approach the world as though “I” were the only subject, all else is dead “objects” to be used, discarded, or dominated, and generally act like a prick, Nazi, tyrant, authoritarian rancid shoe. 

We all have anxiety. We can deal with it by developing agency to manage our own minds and relationships. We can deal with it by developing power over others and generally ignoring the growing pit of sorrow in our own hearts and substituting various toxic mimics of camaraderie for real relationships. 

Those are our choices. How we deal with the sickness of anxiety is ultimately a choice. How we deal with sickness in the body politic is also a choice.

So imagine for a moment. A kid who should have been diagnosed with dyslexia, or given support for a reading comprehension disability. Rather than compassion and kindness, rather than being encouraged to do all the things that kid is certainly good at, the kid is given distain and impatience. The kid internalizes all that negativity. His anxiety that he’s not good enough, that he’s worthless, that may become depression or rage. He may turn self-hatred into any number of forms of egoism; the sentiment that “I’m better than them” — whoever they are — is always insecurity masquerading as superiority.

Think about the sort of people you have seen declaring that “whites” are “the superior race.” There are often visible signs that this person is not all right. How can we help that person heal from their delusions and begin to deal with their natural anxiety in a healthier way? Can we help them heal? (Or is our only option to endure the shitstorm and start fresh in a post-apocalyptic hellscape with aggressively animistic stories that inoculate the next generation from identitarian dumbfuckery and promote relational justice with all beings?)

And sometimes people are just evil. I know from my own firsthand experience that some sociopaths are just born that way. But most of our modern brownshirt cosplaying dweebs… they’re just looking for a way to feel a little better about themselves, and the only narrative they’ve been offered is power over, better than, domination.

So, double vision:

I really fucking hate Nazis.

I also really fucking believe that all beings are descended from Ymir, and that on a spiritual, biochemical, fundamental level, we are all interdependent and inextricable.

Double vision:

I can develop compassion for the dude who joins some backward bullshit federal agency because he’s broke and has no moral compass. That doesn’t mean I’m opposed to punching Nazis where needed.

And in response to either compassion or a solid right hook they’ll probably shoot me in the face.

And then I will return to the One Great Being — or maybe I’ll haunt that murderer’s ass with such a ferocity that he wishes he could exit stage left. And maybe my haunting ass ghost will make sure that self-hating, lonely, desperate, murderous douche canoe stays alive until he is ninety-fucking-nine years old, trapped in a decrepit body, unable to think about anything other than the mediocrity of his finest hour.

You never know.

In a living world made from the body of a dead god, you just never know. 

Resister: Lokasenna Reinterpreted

I marked April 18th on my calendar as Day of Resisters. 

Why this day, particularly, I have since forgotten. (I forget a lot these days. I blame it on the firehose excess of information coming in, but it may just be that sometimes I work out a problem in my mind and then once I’ve arrived at a solution, forget all the steps that got me sorted in order to save precious “disk-space” in my aging mind.)

Nonetheless, today — today I will focus on one story of resistance: Lokasenna.

In this poem, Loki has gone to a feast of the Aesir to tell them off. Having said his piece, he is pursued by the angry gods and transforms himself into a fish, but is later caught in a net of his own design. In retaliation, his sons are killed and their entrails are used to bind him in a cave. A snake which drips poison is placed above him, and his wife, Sigyn, holds a bowl over his face to shield him. When she empties the bowl, Loki’s writhing causes the Earth to shake. Basically. 

Now, I don’t think our myths ever need only one interpretation, nor do I imagine them to be literal tales of factual actions which occurred in the linear past. I think our myths are fractal metaphoric stories inspired in human poets by wise spirits, and that these stories endure because of the nearly limitless truths we can perceive in them as we turn them over, gazing into them through our own, changing, multifaceted contexts.

So, here is one interpretation of the Lokasenna.

Imagine that the gods here do not represent the good and kind and wise spirit powers. Imagine instead for a moment, that here they represent the delirious human grasping for absolute power. Capricious, ruthless, authoritarian power. Imperial, expansionist power. 

The kind of power that arbitrarily kidnaps your three children from their mother in Ironwood. 

Your children have committed no crime. Their transgressions are only supposed prophecies — unsubstantiated accusations. Potentialities. So the gods arbitrarily and capriciously toss one of your sons into the sea. They bind another son for a supposed eternity with an unbreakable bond and shove a sword in his open mouth. And they toss your daughter into the underworld — OK, she becomes goddess of said underworld, but still. Your three children have been kidnapped and renditioned to lands you cannot reach. You cannot rescue them.

Then you’re accused of orchestrating Balder’s death (only by Snorri, not by Saxo, but these rumors are clearly dangerous since no one is engaging in due process). Rather than disappearing into the humble, cowed night, you walk yourself directly into the gods’ party and you tell them off.

You use the shield of your old blood oath, your passport, to enter the space of power. You tell them off. And then, you have to flee, to hopefully fight another day, because now, Thor is after you. (Not Thor, protector of Midgard, not our friend, the god, not your longtime traveling companion, but here, a metaphoric representation of violent, irresistible, physical power.)

You slip away, but these authoritarians pursue you. You imagine all the ways they could catch you and you try to plan your various escapes, but in the end, they use your own mind — your own ideas — to snare you.

They imprison you. Tie you to a stone using the guts of your murdered child. Your partner does what she can. She tries to shield your face from the unceasing drops of venom — but sometimes she must empty the bowl.

And then, your writhing is the source of earthquakes. The injustice of your imprisonment and torture shakes the world. 

The story doesn’t end there; authoritarians always sow the seeds of their own destruction. In torturing you and your family, they’ve created the enemies they sought to defeat. And you don’t survive, but you do end their rule.

I think this is one interpretation. I couldn’t really have seen it before now. But today, it feels like the most important interpretation. 

Today, it feels like prophecy.

The Seed, Ingvi

Once upon a time, as all good stories begin…

Long, long ago, longer than the memories of stones, somewhere in the primordial star-dust soup of the primitive Earth, five elements – carbon, hydrogen, oxygen, nitrogen, and phosphorus –  were electrified.

We do not know how or why the ancient lightning came, but we know it did. Because it left a very curious mark in the wordless record of Earth: Life.

Elements joined hands, formed chains of molecules, and these molecules, agitated by the storm-charge of the young atmosphere, began to replicate themselves in an insensate urge. Copy, copy, copy. Over vast eons, these self-replicating molecules became the instruction manual for new alliances. A phospho-lipid bi-layer. A cell wall. Semi-permeable membranes. 

Cells.

These cells began to eat. To consume one another in order to assimilate the chemical and photic energy of the young cosmos. 

Over even longer stretches of time, one visionary cell, rather than eating another and digesting it, entered into symbiosis with it. Together they were stronger, more energetic. Possibilities opened. And the mitochondria was born. The mitochondria that produces the chemical energy for you to walk in this forest today, those very mitochondria are the descendent copies of some of the earliest, free-living bacteria which joined the primitive eukaryotic cells. 

You are not yourself. Even in your cells. You are defined by community, even at the smallest division of your body. 

Separated by millenia, it happened again. A different rebel cell joined forces with a little, green, free-living mote. And the chlorophyll was born. All plants on Earth descend from this one, revolutionary ancestor. These trees all around you, they are their children. They, too are in-divisible, cannot be individuals, for if you cut the photosynthetic chlorophyll away, you have a dead plant cell. Neither can make a tree without the other.

Once the cells understood the power they had when they chose to work together, multicellular life forms were born and proliferated across land and sea. The exquisite vascular tissue, spores and flowering plants. The smallest aquatic life and the whales with four-chambered hearts the size of a wild boar. Legs. Wings. Reptiles and birds. And later, mammals.

So much creativity. 

All unfolding from a little lightning. A few atoms joining their electron hands.

Atoms that formed in the intense heat of collapsing stars.

You know the hemoglobin in your blood is able to carry its little cargo of oxygen because of iron born in a fusion reaction at the heart of an exhausted star. Life depends on death, always. Life eats death, tears it to shreds, and re-organizes it. 

You are star-dust, self-organizing. 

Light itself is the union of wave and particle. Fast-moving light is energy, radiation, heat. And when energy slows, it cools, it transforms into matter. There are no individuals. Even light itself is in-divisible.  

All the universe’s brilliant creativity is defined by union. And you, you are the perfect expression of the universe’s creativity.

For all of time, your ancestors, long before they were human hunter-gatherers eating their way through Eden, joined electron hands and released them in the unending fractal dance that is Life. 

Look at your body. Is it made according to the instructions inscribed over four-and-a-half billion years in the language of carbon, hydrogen, oxygen, and phosphorus – which were themselves born in the death of untold-billion-year-old stars. You are already ancient. You are already reborn. There is no need to fear age and death.

The body-building code you see today was inscribed in your DNA over the 200,000 or so years that humanity wandered lightly across the land, gathering fruit here in spring, nuts there in fall. Do not despair that you find modernity stern and unyielding; you are perfectly created to be a peripatetic gardener of the savannahs. Humanity can change its environment, but we cannot change ourselves. Despair is natural to a caged bird.

Still, sing.

This time is but a blip in the cosmic order. It will pass. But the self-replicating light that forms you now, it cannot die. Because energy can be neither created nor destroyed in the universe. It can only change form.

And it must change form, always. Constantly, it flows. Energy that does not flow… becomes infinitely dense. Infinitely cold. 

So dance. Dance now. The divine light is your divine structure. It is perfect. 

As are you.

The Herons Were Annoyed

I didn’t have my good camera, so you’ll have to believe that those dark balls up in the tree are heron’s nests, not mistletoe.

I went on a little adventure yesterday. Paddled upstream 4.64 miles in 3 hours. The current wasn’t bad in spots, but there’s a long stretch that seems unnaturally straight. It’s shallow and fast. Had to wade and drag the boat along behind. The whole business was much harder than I had anticipated (probably because I’m not very good at anticipating), but it was a wonderful experience.

The herons were not impressed.

I had paddled the kayak over to the bank to rest a moment, and two huge herons were suddenly upon me. They swooped and yelled, startling me. I hadn’t realized I was invading their nursery. When I paddled back from the bank, they retreated to their nests, watchful and irritable.

A little while later, having navigated maybe a dozen fallen trees (red-eared-slider conventions) and several areas where the limestone has eroded deeply in a long, sinuous channel, but where it is a wide, shallow shelf toward each bank, I came upon a place where erosion from a hilly area in the forest has created two little islands. As I passed the first, a raccoon (or beaver, I never really saw it) launched himself at my boat in fight-or-flight terror.

Of course, I screamed like a blonde in a slasher film.

And then I laughed and laughed and had to stop at the next little island to have lunch.

But it struck me that no matter how many plants and animals I had seen and recognized, there were countless others that had escaped my attention altogether. And I wonder about that.

Humans think we see a lot. We’re quite keen on how awesome we are. But we’re so rarely aware of what we don’t perceive. I hadn’t seen the herons, the raccoon or beaver, or several of the turtles who loudly protested my intrusion on their home. How many lives escaped the approach of my little kayak and never made a sound?

And what could I have learned from them if we could have made friends?